tbh i don’t know why I’m getting bad again. I just am, and all i want to do is cut the absolute shit out of my thighs arms wrists ankles hips and stomach. I want to feel that pain again and to see the crimson blood trickling down my body.
It just, I don’t know, it just reassures me, makes me feel real… Does that make me a bad person for wanting my old addiction back? That I miss the sensation and the pain?